I faced trouble in life in very young age, and somehow I can’t remember how, but I gave up my prayers. I haven’t prayed Salah in many years. I am now in a situation where I can’t share with anyone that I have forgotten how to perform Salah. I found a YouTube video, step by step. But I am struggling to start, something is stopping me. My laziness cost me much in the past and I can’t move forward. I can’t even imagine how to change my lifestyle. I need help to start praying, I am scared if I die soon I will be punished.