For years I have been stuck in bad circle. I make many ideas and plans but don’t have courage and knowledge to achieve them. I’m wasting mig life. I.. really need to seek knowledge(Islam). Where should I start? What topic and from where. I somehow get extremely lazy when I have chores. This effects me and my mother and sibling. Other than work I can’t bother to do anything. Bad habits from childhood I was mentally abused for years. Idk if there’s a link. But I wish to change it and need help. I don’t want Allah to be angry at me for wasting my life he has given me. Is there any hadiths from Ahlul Bayt AS on how to manage lifestyle/lazy ness? If I don’t change now I’ll die like this. I don’t want to be an fiasco anymore.

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