I live with my mother and 2 children. My mother is a very good person she has always helped others during her healthy life but at the same time she tried to dominate and interfere in people's life too. She didn't have a happy relationship with my father since her early 50's as she was never satisfied by anyone. She has a basic nature that whatever she does is only correct. My father was always very hurt with her attitude. My father passed away 1.5 years ago . I got scared of losing her too so I always want to keep my mother fit n fine. I regularly take her to doctor and give her medicines on time. I take her out for outings too but she is never happy. She is always unhappy and dissatisfied . Yesterday she didn't take her medicines and somehow I lost my cool and shouted like hell on the poor old lady. She got a hysterical attack and she too started shouting and hitting me. I was shouting equally with her but didn't react to her hitting me but suddenly while shouting her face started turning red n blue so to get her back to her senses I slapped her hard on her cheek. She came back to her senses and started shouting again. Then I got mellow down and explained her that I dont want to lose her thats why I created a scene and shouted at her. My mother told me that she will never forgive me. After few minutes both of us cried a lot remembering my father. ..and I kept my head on her feet and explained her the reason of my outrage and asked for repentance from her. She hugged me and told me that " Allah ko hazir maan ke maine tum ko maaf kiya beta". I am not able to forget and forgive my self at all. What should I do now to get forgiveness from my mother and Allah and Panjatan and my Imams.