We are definitely influenced by our past mistakes, which sometimes take a long time to repair. Thus, doubt, temptation and struggle persist. Yet, even in the absence of sin, doubt is a human weakness, and it is a test of a believer. This is because our reality and everything that sustains us is restricted to this world. However, when you detach from it and reduce your dependence on things, that’s when your heart starts to achieve true certainty. Try to disconnect from things, like walking away from your phone for a few hours, or reassessing what you actually need versus what you desire. The cleansing of the self is a perpetual process, it never stops, just try to move in the forward direction, and if not that, then don’t go backwards