I’m depressed and I’m loosing my faith. I always made dua for Allah(SWT) to guide me an give me faith and allow me to get closer to him so I could increae my worship. Latley I’ve been praying nafil prayers every chance i get. I even when to a mountain and climbed it to pray nafil al layl so I could get closer to Allah(SWT). I said bismiallah every bite of food I ate. I exhausted all my effort. Allah(SWT) was on my mind when I woke up until I was about to fall asleep. I read Quran for hours daily and prayed all prayers and nafil on time with full intention and knowledge of what I was saying. I have been giving money and energy in order to please God. But now I feel like I’ve been repaid for my efforts with the loss of faith and depression. Islam put value in my life. I’m not really valuable in the real world I saw Allah(SWT) as my only helper and my protector. Now I’m asking myself why is my master doing this to me? Ive contemplated suicide now I’ve exhausted my efforts and Im still disgraced. Im just lost now

Some recommendations:

1- Put the Qur’an on your heart and recite verse 82 of Sura al-Israa:
‎وَنُنَزِّلُ مِنَ الْقُرْآنِ مَا هُوَ شِفَاءٌ وَرَحْمَةٌ لِّلْمُؤْمِنِينَ

2- Do sujud for several minutes each night and with a deep breath each time say: سبحان ربي الاعلى وبحمده (subhana rabbial a3la wa be7amdeh)

3- Eat honey and walnuts/almonds in the morning.

4- Go for the Ziyarah of Imam Hussain (a). It does wonders for such situations. Find a group and go, even it it’s difficult. It’s worth it.

5- Increase knowledge. Knowledge helps with depression.

6- Watch this video:

69- (3) Nahjul Balagha – No Beginning to God, Sadness and Sorrow – Sayed Mohammad Baqer Qazwini