Allah is Great and all shall be well. I can imagine how it feels. However, don’t give up. I’m not sure of the ways you have been exploring . Kindly consider the following points in going forward:
1. Dedicate some time to read the stories of the prophets in the Quran as well as that of the Ahlul bait (as)
2. Try to repeat the Zikrullah in your sajda “ Laa ilaaha illaa Anta subhanaka innee kuntu mina al-zwaalimeen” as much as you can
3. Make sure you have strong family bond – Sileh Rahim
4. Try Namaaz shab if you can
Allah will make it easy for you.