I’m contacting you because I need your help. When I was about 11 years old I was sexually molested, it went on until I think I was 14 and/or 16. My dad passed away when I was 10 so all this began after his death. When I was 18, I started watching pornography nonstop. I watched it all the time. I don’t remember how many times a week I did but I got hooked on it. I became very depressed and I watch till this day. I tried to stop watching it for a month and it worked, but I gave in sometime this week and watched. The feeling it gives me after I finish is repulsive and I don’t want to feel this way. I am aware that this bad habit of mine is blocking my blessings. I’ve never been in love, I never had a serious relationship before. I want to meet someone soon but in order for that to happen I want to heal and I want to get rid of this disgusting habit. Please do not judge me.

Do not worry. Allah is Forgiving and Merciful. Try as much as you can to stay away from it. Spend time with trustworthy friends who do not indulge in such an act. Do your Namaz regularly and ask for forgiveness of Allah.
Allah is Absolute kind and Merciful.
Make effort to change and Allah will bless the effort. Don’t despair at all