Me apni kaifiyat pesh kar raha hun wo ye ki me namaz se shab daily padta hun aur tauba wa istegfaar bhi karta hun. Jab raat ko akele me ye karta hun to aisa lagta hai ki khuda se karib hua hun aur sukoon milta hai but jab subhe hoti hai aur din me masroof hote hai to apne daily routine ki tarah ho jata hun aur gunah bhi hojate hai but maloom nahi hota to aise me kya karu. Aur ek ye baat pareshan kar ke rakkhi hai ki me jisko pasand krta hun wo collage me sath padti hai aur ham baat karte the daily aur islamic baate kiya karte the aur problem bataya karte the but ab ham ne choud diya hai. But dil us jagah par laga hai aur baat ye hai ki jab dil bechain hota hai to khuda ke samne munajat karne me lutf aata hai. Mene kitni koshish ki bhula ne ki aur dua bhi but nahi bhul pata, aur jaan na ye hai ki khuda mere se razi hai ya nahi aur imam e zamana a.t.f.s ki mulaqaat ki tadap kaise laye