I am so sorry to hear your problem. It is seriously painful however this world is the world of test. Everyone goes through certain serious difficult times, but my beloved daughter, with the help of Allah swt one, can get through these crisis.
Make a pact with Allah swt, you want something from Him swt and He wants you to stop this bad habit. Ask Almighty swt to help you and stop this immediately and He will give you what you want. Think of Imam Hussain AS and Lady Zainab AS, if they know that you are watching these forbidden films, how will that be on their hearts. Lady Zainab AS went through a lot of serious crisis but yet showed us that we can have Sabr and patience.
If you feel you have become addicted and cannot stop immediately, then you can wean your self from it slowly. Reduce the time you are watching and the frequency of your watching every week, and so on. I will pray for you and you also pray and put efforts to stop this forbidden act. May Allah swt help you seek forgiveness and give you the strength to stop this evil act.